Again Happy to be Here :-D

It´s the very end of August and so it´s also the end of summer holidays. The leaves are slowly turning into the autumn colours, the nights are becoming colder and colder, it´s again time for depressions :-(
But I feel like the spring has just started! Everything in me is in blossom and I feel like I started to live again! Last moths were for me very, very hard and I was loosing hope, I didn´t believe that it could get better again anytime. But the miracles DO happen!!
Thanks. Thanks that I can live again.

Chalíl Džibrán

"Ľudia si občas naivne myslia, že láska je plodom dlhého zväzku muža a ženy a dlhodobého dvorenia. Láska je však skôr dcérou duševného súladu. Ak sa dve blízke duše stretnú, vzniká láska v jednom okamihu. Ak láska nevznikne odrazu a nečakane, nevznikne ani po rokoch, ba ani po stáročiach."

Trip to Čachtice

How to Save a Life - the Fray

In this song is a big truth hidden ;-)
Unfortunately
Where did I go wrong
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness

Angry and Sad or... Sad and Angry? :-(

It is just unbelieveble how things are changing from one year to another! May it is because the radical changes are happening from one day to another, from one minute to another... Even if the things need some time for developing, the breaking feeling comes suddenly, almost unexpectedly and we know that something just has happened... It is the one particular moment in which you realize that the gate of your heart finally closed and the key locked it forever. And you do not have any will nor energy anymore to speak and solve the problem!

People are appearing in our lives suddenly and then as suddenly as they came in they leave... and we can not or sometimes do not want to do anything about it.
It´s better to believe that it should be like that and that it is better for us, better for them... If we would not believe that we would get crazy!

But it is hard! I wanna cry, I wanna shout, I need to break some glass!! But I can´t change it! Even if people don´t travel thousands of miles away they can be so far! Just because they change, just because you change... The sun rises again tomorrow, I will have my usual glass of coffee but the gate of my heart will remain closed... Where a hell is some glass?!

Človek musí mať hranicu!! Môže byť akokoľvek zvrhlý, ale ak si váži aspoň seba samého tak MUSÍ mať hranicu! Ľudia bez hraníc sú ľudia bez sebeúcty!

Just Before the Sunset...

I found yesterday what is the most beautiful
part of the day...
It is the time just before, during and just
after the sunset :-)
At that time the world around us looks so
calmly as it was coped with its destiny...

And in one second it looks like the world suddenly stopped in time, flowers in closing its blossoms, birds in singing their songs
and their lullaby makes even people to stop

for a minute and to look around them...

Just before the sunset...

"Every day, God gives us, as well as the sun, a moment, when it is possible to change anything that is causing us unhappiness. The magic moment is the moment, when "yes" or "no" can change our whole existence. Every day we try to pretend, that we do not see that moment, that it does not exist, that today is (...)" Paulo Coelho

Chvíľka poézie

"I have nothing to say
And I´m saying it
And that is poetry
as I needed it."
John Cage

Once

How often do you find the right person?
Once...

Crazy trip to Budapest

The syndrom of a "strong woman"

That´s how I would call the situation in today´s society. We are doing everything just to be strong and not to feel anything. That´s our ideal. And my as well. And when I find that there are some senses I feel ashamed and stupid. Isn´t that strange?! But I can´t help myself! I am sorry but I am just a sensitive girl!!!
I always jump into things without thinking about coming up. But that coming up is the hardest part. That´s the slow part. Jumping is always fast, enjoyable, without thinking. The coming up is on the other hand full of thinking, pain and it´s so so so slow! I hate the expression that everything needs some time. It´s so truly!
On Saturday my whole world broke down into small, smaller, the smallest pieces. And now I am trying to build it up again.
Life is so unpredictable!
I wanted to say sorry. I wanted to say sorry for being a sensitive girl. But I am not feeling like saying that anymore. I like to be like this even if it´s the more difficult way. I want to love as much as I can and I want to smile every day and feel that around me are people who love me and who I can love and live for!!!!
Love more, live more, risk more...
Thank you guys. I am so happy to have you all around me helping me to build my world again.
Everything has some reason. My world broke down to be build up once again better, stronger, nicer, more sensitive. I hope this task will be fullfiled succesfully.

The Fountain

Just thinking

Of course we are stuck in the past! We are still thinking how it was beautiful before when I didn´t have to... or when I could... and we are forgetting about the bad things of that past times. And so we can´t move on because we want to have our lives like they were before and so we are afraid of great changes in our lives which would bring us far away from that "sweet past". Warrior of the light is for me somebody who recognizes that this is bad attitude to life and is able to move on without crying upon own "sweet past". If we want to live our lives fully and happily we to move on. But it´s more comfortable to stay stuck in sweet memories - there are no worries of what ´ll happen if I will change my life...

:-)))

Scouting

Scouting - that´s fight, extremes, help, service, fun, courage and lot more...

The another half

Today I was studying philosophy (which I wanted to give up but sometimes I think that once I will write a book with my own philosophical theory :-)) and also I was walking around our river. It was beautiful weather and I couldn´t stay at home so I went out and was trying to read while walking - it is very effective!!
But what I want to write about - I was thinking about my friends who are about 21 and already has children! I don´t feel like having children in this age! (I was born when my mum was 21!) I need first to know myself and then I can have and grow up my own child!!! How they can know themselves in such age?!
And my deduction is that Plato was probably really right when he wrote that we are looking for our "other halves"! May be when we find our real half, we start to know ourselves. So we are recognizing ourselves actually through somebody else :-)
May be I am just getting crazy and I should really stop studying philosophy. Or may be not...

Beautiful Day

It looks like spring is coming! I know that it is not the end of winter but it is no nice to have some nice days in January! Yesterday I went for a hike with my friend :-) It was just GREAT! We were talking about changes in our lives - we didn´t chat like this for a year so there was a lot of things to talk about! 6 hours of walking and talking and now I feel like something big felt from my heart - I am sharing all my troubles with somebody else so they don´t seem so big! And I feel that everything is gonna be OK, all my problems will be solved! May be now it is not ideal but again I have HOPE and I feel happy! May be a bit exhausted but ´cause yesterday I reached my limit and even got through it I feel like I relieved from something...
Few days before were really bad and I really disapointed some people (and myself as well) and I said to myself that I really need to change! And this could be the beginning :-) I don´t know if it is really understandable what I wanted to say, it´s like my confession... Once again I am really sorry what I have (or haven´t) done... Life is too short for disapointing people around us!

Special talent

Right now I should be writing an exam in Bratislava. Instead I´m sitting in front of my computer 80 km far from my school! Why? Because that stupid train doesn´t run on Fridays!! Cool! This is first exam because of which I couldn´t sleep at night! I have some special talent for starting and not finishing things! I feel like an idiot!!!

Most ridiculous British laws

1. It is illegal to die in the Houses of Parliament (27%)

2. It is an act of treason to place a postage stamp bearing the British monarch upside-down (7%)

3. In Liverpool, it is illegal for a woman to be topless except as a clerk in a tropical fish store (6%)

4. Mince pies cannot be eaten on Christmas Day (5%)

5. In Scotland, if someone knocks on your door and requires the use of your toilet, you must let them enter (4%)

6. In the UK a pregnant woman can legally relieve herself anywhere she wants, including in a policeman's helmet (4%)

7. The head of any dead whale found on the British coast automatically becomes the property of the King, and the tail of the Queen (3.5%)

8. It is illegal not to tell the tax man anything you do not want him to know, but legal not to tell him information you do not mind him knowing (3%)

9. It is illegal to enter the Houses of Parliament in a suit of armour (3%)

10. In the city of York it is legal to murder a Scotsman within the ancient city walls, but only if he is carrying a bow and arrow (2%)

If we had on Realia lesson exam from these rules I am sure I would pass it :-)))

Snem

At least looks like doing something :-)))

Bobule (CZ)

New czech movie - looks good - with great song "Atentát" from Krystof :-)))
"Guys, don´t drive the car when you are drunk - drunk driver, happy murderer."
"Come to the cinema to see how we live here ..."

God is not winking

"This world is the best of possible worlds"... Before a few days I would say What a bullshit Mr. Leibniz? You didn´t live during WWs and you were probably a big optimist loving this world too much! But I was - very angry - talking about this opinion with my mother and - sometimes it is great that we have totally different opinions - she told me very interesting thing. That this world was created as the best of possible words but that were us who fucked it all up! That´s actually better teodicea like Leibniz´s - that if there wasn´t evil we would not be trying to reach better world!
And another nice opinion is that the God is not winking! It comes from Berkeley´s philosophy that God have to be still looking at this universe because only what is in his mind does really exist. So he can´t wink ´cause world would dissapear for a second...
It would be so great if I remembered all the philosophers like this two... but I just have a big mix in my mind and I have an exam in two days...

Stuck in my past

I found what is my problem. I am stuck in my past and my second mind is still full of that particular time!!! And I can´t move on. May be I would be able to move but then there is a question if I really want to and I am still not ready for that... Outside is cold winter but I still live in summer... May be it is that what is helping me to survive but when it all inside of me fall on one big pile it is what is pulling me down... One part of me would love to move on but another is saying me that I am still not ready for that... OMG it is such a long time and I am not able to move on!!!

Slovak Xristmas

I hope you like it :-)