Stuck in my past

I found what is my problem. I am stuck in my past and my second mind is still full of that particular time!!! And I can´t move on. May be I would be able to move but then there is a question if I really want to and I am still not ready for that... Outside is cold winter but I still live in summer... May be it is that what is helping me to survive but when it all inside of me fall on one big pile it is what is pulling me down... One part of me would love to move on but another is saying me that I am still not ready for that... OMG it is such a long time and I am not able to move on!!!