Some quotes

"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering." ( Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept)
And in the same book:
"In real life love has to be possible. Even if it is not returned right away, love can only survive when the hope exists that you will be able to win over the person you desire."
I love this Coelho´s book. It really helped me but this two quotes are some kind of contradiction for me...

Christmas Time - Nightwork

Nemám slov... :-)))))

Atame - Tie me up tie me down

Merry Christmas

I was so looking forward for yesterday that it couldn´t be as I imagined it. I had the last exam before Christmas and then we went for Christmas shopping with my classmate. It would be great if there wasn´t her friend... I am tolerant, I don´t mind if anybody has different lifestyle and don´t like things which I do but... this is too much. If somebody criticizes me because she doesn´t like my hair, clothes... and it seems that this person stopped on the level of children in their teens (like: how many points did you get? Oh I am better!) and is sure that she is the best even if everybody around knows that she isn´t! People like this can really bother me and I am sorry but I really can´t cope with them!!
Yeah Merry Christmas!
So I decided to go shopping on my own. And I really enjoyed it. I bought great presents in my favourite ethno shop and I can´t wait to give them to my sister and my mum!!
And today I finally came home for Christmas:-))) Hurray!!! And I already started with tidying up :-) I don´t like it but now when I spend more time in dormitory house and I don´t have to do it every week it almost makes me happy...
I found that I didn´t pass an exam today which is pretty bad ´cause it was my last chance this year. I will have to repeat it next year. I had 82 percent but I didn´t pass it because we have to have 90 percent! Actually I am happy that I scored 82 percent! (the paradox is that I had the biggest score when I was sure I will fail and I didn´t study for ir - so I wasn´t nervous!) It was exam from 2 past and 4 present tenses - all together in one test so it was really hard! I don´t think that native speakers really use all of these tenses!! But what can I do?
So once again Merry Christmas!

The most beautiful christmas present which I could get I got a few days before Christmas Eve! I wasn´t sure why am I crying - if it is ´cause of my failed exam or because I found that there is a person who haven´t forgotten (wow the present tense!) me even I thought he did! Many times I was almost sure that I am OK again and I can move on and many times I found - after seeing some photograph, video or just because of some dream that I didn´t forget about him and it will take some more time until I will be able to move on... Exactly like in these days when I was sure everything´s over but I wasn´t sure if I am happy about it... and now everything is back...
Merry Christmas!

Just a grey day

Today I have really strange day! I should be happy that I am at home and to be studying, studying and studying because I have so much work to do... But I am not able to do anything at all! I started so many things but I wasn´t able to finish ANYTHING! My mood is exactly like this weather today - it´s raining and everything seems to be so grey. I hope tommorrow it will be better because I will fail all my exams next week!!

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